Week 17 has started! & Yes I have been holding out!

First of all I am finding work is getting in the way with blogging and just plain having fun.

This last week has been a bit odd. Yes, I have been holding out on everyone probably even myself if I truly think about it. There have been so many who have been praying for me and her and I did not feel right posting about other things until I wrote about this development. Last week during my weekly discussion with my agency I asked for an update, pictures, a weight report or news about a court date. Anything! I told them that I was worried that a court date was far away and that I was not feeling very comfortable about the wait anymore.

Well I got my anything! Last week I got what my agency has called a penciled in court date!!!!!! So what does that mean. Well I was not sure that is the reason why I have not mentioned it. I was told that this date could change but it does not seem that it has. I still do not have 100% confirmation about the date and that is the reason why I was reluctant and still somewhat are reluctant to post information about it. I hope to have more information early next week. I tried on Friday to get some more information but alas it is that holiday weekend.

So how do I feel about my anything you ask? EXCITED, ELATED, scared and a little worried but let me explain a bit. No two situations are alike and I am sure that everyone feels that theirs is strange or unusual. It actually took me a whole week to realize that I have a court date. I HAVE A COURT DATE! Gerard told me that he was quite confused by my response. I have walked around in a bit of a daze for the past couple of days. I felt very torn about talking about this date for my fear is that it will change.

I was going on the theory of if I say something then it will change and I really do not want it to change. I guess it is some level of denial, the last thing I want is for this date to fall through and for me to be disappointed not to mention that she would be away from me another day.

I did start to believe that this was the date until I sat down with my friend Lynn to plan this summer's 2nd Annual Amuse Joy Events. That is when I realized that juggling work, days to finish her room and prepare for my trips and Amuse Joy Events might be difficult but we do have them planned have no fear.

It was then that I realized at that moment that I HAVE A COURT DATE! I know delayed reaction which is actually making me laugh when I think about it. I am pretty sure that this is not how others have reacted. This is never how I thought I would react.

So here are the answers to the really big questions:

1.What is the date?
July 30, 2009

2. When do I leave?
I am not sure I was thinking July 24 or 25

3. What did the family say?
Well as soon as I tell them I will let you know. I know this sounds mean but honestly they will drive me crazy. I want them to enjoy the process and not stress that the date may change. I want to wait until it is really, truly confirmed before I tell them. If the date were to change then they would not understand. Honestly if the date changes then I will not have the energy to explain the reason why.

4. Will I make 1 trip or 2 trips?
My plan at first was to make 1 trip but that was before I broke my arm. Now saving my vacation time is even more important then it has been the last 3 years. So I think and I say think I have decided to make 2 trips so that I can work between trips.

5. Will I be traveling alone?
If you ask me today then the answer is yes at least for the 2nd trip. I will be traveling alone. I have made one trip on a plane since my cast came off and I did fine so for today that is the plan. This may however change because I am still a bit uncertain if I will want someone the 3rd trip. I think there are pros and cons to having someone come with me I just need to decide if the pros outweigh the cons.

6. How much time will I be taking off from work when she gets home?
This is still a little up in the air. Because of my broken arm I used quite a bit of my Family Medical Leave but because I went back to work early I am entitled to some time off, about 6 weeks. I do have some vacation time saved so I will plan some days off here and there through out the year.

So that is it. I can barely contain my excitement.