Disbelief

So I turned the TV on this morning (Anna is still sleeping) so that I can watch the news from Connecticut. I have friends that live in Connecticut so when I first saw this on Facebook I felt sick. When I saw where the shooting was I knew at least one friend lived close to the location. My other friend is a teacher in there. I will not lie I check Facebook throughout the day. When the one friend posted that they were okay I was so relieved and nervous all at the same because the other had not posted.

As I rechecked Facebook I saw that she had commented on our mutual friend's post. I did not realize until then just how worried I was about her and her little guy. Melissa I was never so glad to see you on Facebook. I can not imagine how those who are personally affected are feeling. I pray that these families are able to find some closure.

It has been a difficult week for me. My tears have flowed over the past week because of the decisions that I need to make. Tuesday, I see the Oncologist. I will need to make the decision as to where or not to start chemotherapy as a preventative measure for breast cancer. I am still very undecided as to where I will decide to start this medication. This morning I have realized that I need to live each day that I am given because each day is a gift. I guess I am just a slow learner or one that forgets easily.

Hug your babies, Hug your wife or husband. Accept the challenges that you are given.