Preferences

As I waited for Anna to be brought to the door at school for pick up today it struck me that she has preferences. I know this sounds crazy but when Anna first came home much of what she wore and did was determined by me. I have friends who are laughing at me right now because they kept telling me that this would happen.

Anna prefers Gerard to pick her up from school. I am sure that it has to do with when he does pick her up instantly she knows that there is a play ground or Papa in her immediate future. She loves to drive in his truck.

Anna's favorite musician so far is James Taylor. I would play this when she was first home and sing to her when she was upset. I think it is amazing that she remembers this music. Anna likes to pick out her pajamas and in fact stay in her pajamas all day if I would let her.

Anna loves to sit on my lap during dinner. Anna loves when Gerard and I are both home for cozy time and prefers that we sit on the smaller of the two sofas together. Anna calls sitting on my lap "the nest."

I guess why I am writing this is just over 2 years ago a met a little girl who seemed to like me but was cautious. She looked for my approval, She was quiet even though I felt like she was my daughter, she was not.

Today as I was dressing Anna for school she told me. "Mama love you." I admit I am shameless and tell Anna that I love her all the time. I want her to know that I love her and telling her is just one way.

When Anna first came home she had no preference for me verses any other woman. Today is so much different. I could never have imagined how good this would feel to see her little face or hear her call my name.

I guess I have a preference too. I so prefer being her Mama then being childless. Thank you God for this some times difficult, sad and long journey because the reward is far better then I could have imagined.


March 12, 2009


March 12, 2011