6 Months plus 1 day but who is counting?

When I was waiting for Anna I remember thinking how will it feel when she is here for a week, 6 months or a year? Well today marks that milestone of 6 months and yes 1 day. In my mind I had big plans for this post but once again life seems to get in the way.

Mostly our days consist of Anna and I at home together. I am not really sure she has gotten the concept of me working. My days are pretty randomly scheduled with the exception of my weekends. I have found that working 2 in a row is better for her and me. I will not kid you I am tired, really tired. Greg (Hans' Daddy) was over the other night after I had worked 2 in a row. He took one look at me and said "Wow you looked tired...Were you ever this tired before Anna?" To that question I laughed and told him no. He agreed, see Hans is only 9 months old and from time to time Jaime and Greg have watched her for me and I watch Hans for them. I not quite sure how this would have all worked out if I did not have them and of course Jillian too.

I hope to finish my attachment entry soon. Just a preview, I think we are doing really well. Attachment and bonding are hard even harder then I first thought.

So rather then talk about attachment I thought a run down of things I regret and things that I do not regret would be interesting.

I regret not taking a vacation before Anna came home. An easy vacation one where I could just relax would have done me some good. I regret not having the ability to bank sleep time. Even though this would be impossible it does sound like it would be so wonderful. I wish I had pushed my agency to get my court date faster. That is a surprise for me too...I still think Anna did not fair as well as I did in the time we were apart. My biggest regret is worrying about everything when she first came home. Worry is a waste of time and energy.

One of the biggest things that I do not regret is keeping Anna's world small. She still has no idea that toys come in a happy meal or that there are sections of stores that are devoted to toys. I have tried to limit the number of toys that I bought for her and the number that others try to buy for her. Anna is really learning to play and is starting to show signs of having a few favorite toys.

By far the biggest thing that I do not regret is adopting internationally. (Yes Amy I got your email and I am working on a more personal response)Anna is unique! Having gotten the opportunity to experience Anna's home country was such a memory that I will not forget. Loving Anna has made my life complete...watching her play gives me such joy in my heart.